July 23, 2007
· Filed under nanyang
前几天萦写了一封信给我，真是让我感动。 从中学认识她到现在，除了在考试时勉强写些公函和私函以外，她从来就不擅于写信给任何人， 所以这次我感到非常意外。 信的内容很简单，但又让我差点儿流下了眼泪。妈妈说她的字体很有特色，我想她知道以后一定会不停地狂笑吧！
今天我又收到了一封信。信的内容很沉重。想必写信人应该对我有好多不满。我觉得写信人似乎把我看成是一个只在乎表面动作的人。这是我的见解，也许写信人没有这个意思，我希望他/她没有。我想文学有太多让我们自由想象的空间，所以我才会仔细地咀嚼信中的每一个字。这就是文学庞大的力量。我不晓得该怎么与写信人沟通，我们之间似乎有段距离，这应该也是我造成的吧？希望时间会冲淡一切吧！
God will make a way,
where there seems to be no way;
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me.
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to his side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way.
By a roadway in the wilderness
He’ll lead me
And rivers in desert will I see
Heaven and earth will fade
But His word will still remain,
He will do something new today.
July 20, 2007
· Filed under nanyang
我想这一切的一切都是美丽的错误。从相识到成为默契十足的好友，都是老天在戏弄我们吧。心中觉得很不是滋味，但我也无从开口，因为我真的不善于用语言、用文字来表达心中的感受。虽是千言万语，但我不晓得该怎么说明。就让它随风而去吧，飘到那幽幽的山谷之中，让所有的烦恼消失在朦胧的夜色中。
今天傍晚约了燕吟和慧艺一同共进晚餐。聊了许多， 也对这无情虚伪的世界有了更深一层的认识。虽然我对人们的冷漠与麻木感到十分失望，但我很庆幸，因为我周遭的知己和家人都待我很好很好，我也许是生活在这黑暗时代的幸运者之一吧！为此，我感谢上苍给予我的恩惠。
（黄思慧小朋友，你看到了吗？让我们一起来感受这种被朋友爱护、被家人疼爱的幸福，不要再为了不开心的事而愁眉不展，因为幸福并不是偶然的。）
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这几天我一直梦见他。梦见和他一起手牵着手走在泰国的一条街道上。细心的他因为知道我怕狗， 所以一看见条凶猛的黑犬在我们身边徘徊，就会紧握着我的左手，让我的心跳慢慢地缓和下来。
这就是我和亲爱的马少强的和照！
他就是我在泰国的小甜心了。 虽然他才九岁，但他非常懂事、乖巧。真是惹人喜欢！别看他相貌平平，他可是我遇过最贴心、最有男子气盖的男生。若有机会和他一起相处，你一定会爱上天真纯朴及稳重踏实的他。还记得我在泰国突然发烧，细心的他竟然为我熬了一碗菜汤。真是赫在嘴里，甜在心里。不知何时才能与可爱的他再次相会？我向往泰国清麦村民们无忧无虑，纯朴充实的生活！
July 20, 2007
· Filed under Uncategorized
Guess what. I was in school just for the sake of an one-hour econs lecture. I should have just stayed at home and catch a little more sleep. Havent been feeling quite well these days, I think I’m exhausted mentally. My motivation are sweeping away at an increasing rate and I’m languishing in self-pity.
SHE- a mysterious friend of mine is at times hard to comprehend. I always wonder whats going on in her mind when I look into her eyes. there shes goes, lifting her hands high up in the “green light”. oh too much Gatsby. I’m glad PYY shares the same thought as me and I thank her for always being there. I had really wanted to help this friend of mine, I wanted to cheer her up, I tried to smile and even extended my hands to her, but it was all futile. I didnt quite understood XSY when she shared her thoughts with me a few months ago, but now, I think my reactions are much stronger than hers. The feeling of being unappreciated.
Not that I want my kindness to be recipocrated, but all our attempts to help her have gone into the irking smelly drain. I’m gonna give up, soon, very soon.
On a much lighter note, yanyin and I are heading over to the fried hokkien mee stall for lunch later! I’m so excited! Met up with wenna and seying last saturday for dinner and pasa-malam! I guess wenna is pretty upset cos her valentine is being called upon to serve the nation. banana, hes going away for a good cause alright, so be proud of your love.
