RUOYI

These three days have truly been well spent. I realised that the building which I’ve always thought to be Robinson Plaza or Robinson Building is actually known as Centre Point. =)) Met up with Banana after her lesson on Monday evening, I guess it was pretty enjoyable, except for the walking part. We walked all the way from Centre point to Far East Plaza and then back again just to meet her mum and aunt. Her mum and aunt have carefully displayed the spirit of shopping-ing, they spent almost THREE hours right there at ESPRIT, fitting on clothes and running about while banana and I lazed around at a corner. We were talking about friendships, relationships and the various attitude people should adopt if they want to integrate into the society. Obviously, Banana has all merits cos I guess she’s a social butterfly who has the capability to mingle around while I’m still living in my dream world. We were on her uncle’s car when her aunt asked about her absence from the church. 

AUNT: why hasn’t wenna been going to the church?
ME: That’s because she has been reading the bible daily, her boyfriend’s name is JOHN!
WENNA’S MUM: That’s why she doesn’t need to go! John chapter 3 verse 16
WENNA: For God so loved the world… …
It was kind of funny and everyone laughed.

Met up with Serena and Serene on tuesday. I remember how our almighty Amaths teacher used to get so confused over their names! Haven’t seen my automatic tuner for 2 years and I guess we had a wonderful time catching up. Nana was my partner in secondary three, my fellow zheng3 buddy and my fast+accurate automatic tuner who has the flair in playing the Guzheng! I remember how she used to get so agitated at herself when she couldn’t make me understand those confusing Maths concepts and called me “daughter” because I was quite a gullible and ignorant pig back then! I guess Nana has matured quite a lot and she has grown to become more feminine! A shocking change considering the fact that she was labeled as the “white crow” due to her rowdiness in the basketball court! Here’s 祖母刘氏with her long hair!

Serene and I had a splendid time sharing about the funny and eccentric people we’ve encountered in Nanyang. Nana was mainly listening and laughing together with us! It’s a pity that CSY had to go for prom or it would have been even livelier! We were talking about FOO with great excitement and we laughed even harder when NANA revealed that she has always considered FOO a student! And coincidentally, both NANA and FOO are from ajc!

Because of her relatively matured dressing (look to serene and I!), serene and I decided to call her “祖母刘氏”, yup, if you remember《陈情表》! HAHA! It was pretty hilarious cos NANA looked totally puzzled while ser and I continued with our laughter! I always feel loved when I’m with my PL-lites, there is always this sense of closeness and sisterly love that possess the power to bind us together! =)) We had Din Tai Fung for dinner and we had my favourite “小笼包”! 实在是爽！Although the queue was unimaginably long, we waited and waited just for the sake of meeting “小笼包”！so yummy!

While waiting for our turn, Serene started her story about our principal, Mr kwek, when
She saw him walking past us! Serene, being the ultimate Mr. kwek fan shouted for him! But Mr kwek, indulged in his world of love walked away. Serene then tried out step two, She chased after him and shouted for him once again! Finally, after a few attempts, he turned and said HI!

Mr Kwek: What are you guys doing here?
Serene: Queuing up for Din Tai Fung
Mr Kwek: Is it really nice?
Me: Yes sure!
MR Kwek: OK good. I shall set up one Din Tai Fung at Nanyang! Bye.

That was rather funny and yup, we had an excellent dinner that night! =)) Upon reaching home, NANA called my handphone to check if I’ve reached home safely. I personally feel that that was a really sweet gesture. Often, I take the safety of my family and friends for granted, not bothering to do what NANA has done yesterday. Well, I think this little short and simple phone call can really touch the heart. Sometimes you just got to show that you care by these little gestures, though they may be small and are seemingly insignificant. Oh well, I guess my automatic tuner, 刘妈妈 is an expert in doing that! Thanks Nana, I’ll not tell anyone about George! HAHA!

thats ser,me and ser! did you realise that aunty ler has rebonded her hair? It really looks good, U look cuter now! but that’ll be a hindrance for you and mr ming dao cos he’s already so much older than you.

Caught “enchanted” with sihui,Pris,ser and sihui’s brother! Sihui’s brother doesn’t seem to resemble her, he was rather quiet and shy, so unlike his highly energetic sister! Well, I guess I really love the music, it was simply GREAT! If life could be as simple as fairy tales, if only we could differentiate between good and evil that easily. We were chatting on the phone just now when Sihui and I came to a common conclusion that we lack the ability to distinguish good from evil and that we, being those stupid ignorant idiots, cannot survive in the society. Ah well, people of the modern day are complicated and everything in this world is ridiculously complex.

Just got in touch with my secondary2 SARS partner a couple of days ago. (YUP, I was left sitting alone for quite some time cos my partner JO was a SARS suspect!then i remember there was a girl named melinda who came to sit with me becos she wanted to move forward!)Everyone has moved on and she has grown to become stronger spiritually. =)) I still miss those PL days and Jo was telling me that we will only come to truly appreciate PL after we leave her sheltering walls. I always thought that seniors who came up with this saying are being cliche, but yes, I’m feeling it now. =)) We were just sharing about the different kinds of people we meet after leaving PL and again, we came into a similar point that everything is quite tangled and complex in the real world out there! Jo was just sharing that “Man will fail, but God will never fail us” and that was what ahmeng told me just now! HAHA! ohwell, just keep praying! Everything will soon be alright, just keep on praying =))

Alright, my morning call service was bad. Choo sounded like she just woke up. Meeting mum and seying for lunch later! YAY!that’s something for me to look forward to. Choo will be working soon, and that would necessarily imply that I’ll die of boredom. But I guess things aren’t that bad, cos banana and YQ will be having their hols soon. =))

我真的没想到，原来我们在他心中是那么惹人厌的。我不明白，难道他就那么想和我们一刀两断、画清界限，从此互不相干吗？ 我们大家的友谊真的是那么脆弱吗？我曾经以为，我们大家可以做一辈子的好友，有福同享、有难同当，但后来才发现，这只是我一厢情愿、幼稚无知的想法而已。 悲，当然有些难过。但在这“乱世”中，我只感到自己的无能、和种种的无奈。

“就这样　断了线　
就真这样　不再相见
飞出了时间　飞出天边　
飞到另外一个　没有我（们）的天
经过许多年（月）　所有的眷恋　
飘浮在时空里　没有终点
人生是一张　泛黄的相片　
而我站在车站静止的画面 ”

当你每踏出一步就把自己搞得遍体鳞伤，

你还会鼓起勇气，不顾一切地再次往前吗？

在你最失落彷徨，迷失自己方向的那一刻，

你有曾经想过假如一切可以重来该多好吗？

当有人在你生命最低潮的时候伸出援手，

你是否会对这无情的世界重新评估呢？

那天我和邻居BANANA 在饭后聊起天来。对于她所面对的问题， 我真是心有余而力不足。其实，那天我根本就没有察觉出她眼里所流露出的悲伤， 是妈妈在和她谈话后悄悄告诉我的。

她，遇到了挫折。

现在的她， 感到害怕无助，问我她这一次是否还是得付出百分之百的力量与关爱 。说真的，我不知道。所谓 “Once bitten twice shy”，要她从这恐怖的阴影中勇敢地走出来是不简单的。我想帮助她，但又有点力不从心。后来，她又说自己绝对不会再次付出真心，因为她所付出的爱与真心，换回来的只有一道道的伤口和疤痕，痛得她无法呼吸。这时候的我，是否应该劝她把一切都忘了，还是陪着她一起默哀，因为我们同病相怜啊！

她说我不会明白，因为她所面对的是儿女私情，跟我的问题不一样。但在我看来，也许，两者是相似的吧！人与人之间的关系就是如此微妙。不是吗？

“There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven. A time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal, a rime to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain, a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away, a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak, a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace.”

Now, its time to ponder. A promise to keep or a promise to break?

WOW! an extremely tiring but fulfilling day today! I guess dinner with serene and seying was simply enjoyable! Am looking forward to more! before that, I must say that I really need a good rest cos it seems that my nose is starting to rebel, its running away!HAHA!

Anyway, Choo got herself a job and her boss told her to give herself a christian name cos he felt that chinese names are too difficult to remember! (ok, what crap!) So ser and I were thinking of innovative and trendy names for choo. hmm, since I’m known as roy, seying shall be rai cos rai+her surname “choo” equals to RAICHU! an alternative would be PIKA, pikachoo, which sounds cuter!HAHA! Alright, till then! =))

It has been quite an eventful week and I guess I’ve grown to become stronger spiritually and emotionally.(that’s a good thing alright!) Though I’m still suffering from insomnia, I reckon that its not at all a bad thing if you were to look at it from a different angle!

Went cycling during class chalet. I guess it was pretty enjoyable though I’m not at all a fantastic cyclist cos yanyin had to keep stopping and turning around to check if I were following them tight!You know i nearly knocked into a tree, alas poor tree! But sure enough, the sea breeze and the beautiful scenaries were peaceful and I STILL enjoy cycling at my pace despite complaints that I’m a “tortise-cyclist”.

Presenting to you  my cycling buddies:

Played various card games with Diana,ZY,YY,and Connie upon arrival. It was so hilarious and fun! No, we didn’t gamble and stuff, we played the “name-game”! and the trick to winning is to give yourself a super extraordinary long long name so that your opponents would have trouble pronouncing/ remembering it. TADA- that’s the ultimate strategy that you’ve gotta master in order to win. =))

To my point again. I’m glad I didn’t sleep that night cos I had splendid chat with Connie. She was sharing this verse with me( 1 Corinthians 13:8):

“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast. It is not proud. It is not rude. It is not self seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no records of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.”

Loads of reflections to be done but I’m glad did she talk some senses into my stubborn mindset. We were sharing about our experiences and thoughts, and she suggested that I should try out the distraction therapy. Well, I guess it kinda help but running away from reality is not a long term solution. HAHA! but yup, I really felt much more comfortable after that talk. SO you see, insomnia aint that a bad thing! (given that you utilise that period of time well.)

Met up with seying and we had quite a feast on Friday!Had lunch at her house before we went on a rendezvous!(ok, that was exaggeration!) I treated her to my favourite 小笼包（真的很好吃！想到就流口水！）and she treated me to Anderson’s ice-cream cos she claimed that shes affiliated to it, reason being that she is from Anderson junior college. -_-”. (Alright, crap!)

Went to the church with neighbour banana today. =)) Met many PL lites, my fellow red badge(the 1989 babies!) ,the senior batch of red badge plus the junior batch of red badge! THREE generations of red badge, can you believe it? Felt really comfortable with the fellow PL lites cos I realise that we’re one of a kind, exceedingly unglam and surprisingly childish. I could feel the warmth, hmm, cant really explain, but its definitely a good feeling!

The guest speaker for the day was Nick Vujicic, a guy born without hands and limbs. I was pretty shocked when I first saw him and guess what, he was really optimistic.

It says in James 1:2 – “Consider it pure joy, my Brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds.”

Well, he gave thanks for his circumstance instead of dwelling upon it. He was sure that God has a purpose for him,God has made him in such a way so that he could reach out to more people out there. He then urged us to be thankful for our circumstance and not indulge in self-pity for our present situation might be of some help to those who come behind us.(or at least to those who suffer the same fate as us, cos we’d be able to understand their feelings and be tactful!) But how can we rejoice in our present situation if its so appalling and  horribly disgusting? I guess this realisation would take some time. =)) Nonetheless, I believe many people were touched by his courage and faith! Hmm, at times i wonder if he’s really happy. Oh Well…